Silence is thy friend...

Had this experience recently... again...

It had been and still is a busy month for me and my family...
And this means, of course I was involved as well...

I can hear the voices of responsibility screaming silently in my head;

Catering, baking, handicraft-making, AE, catering, baking, handicraft-making, AE, catering, baking, handicraft-making, AE, catering, baking, handicraft-making, AE, catering, baking, handicraft-making, AE....

It kept repeating and repeating itself up to the extend I wanted to throw up...
I felt angry, stressed, cranky, caged, hurt... everything negative swallowed me whole...

Then, one night, I couldn't sleep... honestly, I didn't want to... because I knew what awaits me in the morning...
Sitting up on my bed, I leaned against the wall-engulfed in silence...

The voice never seemed tired...

I couldn't take it anymore...

SHUT THE F*** UP!!!

Then... silence...

I opened my eyes and stared into the darkness cloaking my room.
The voice was gone...

I closed my eyes again and listened to the soundless night... I embraced the feeling I opened to... It was comforting... I felt free...

No stress... No pressure... Nothing...

I could feel tears trickling down my cheeks...I didn't want to let this feeling go...

I felt grateful to feel like this again... and pray it won't leave me until I'm ready to move forward once more...

Words of Wisdom

The first step in the acquisition of wisdom is silence, the second listening, the third memory, the fourth practice, the fifth teaching others. -Solomon Ibn Gabriol

A wise man learns by the mistakes of others,
a fool by his own. - Latin Proverb

The man of wisdom is never of two minds;
the man of benevolence never worries;
the man of courage is never afraid. - Confucius